yes yes i admit. i was angry when i said it. now it doesn't seem as i have said it. i lost my laptop adapter. it either dropped out, or someone took it. and now i know its not someone from the class. in anger, i said that the class sucks. when u lose something important, u will understand it. now, i'll just say that its my fault, and just go get another one, and blame myself for being so suay



ahh the newest war zone to be. singapore polytechnic, chemical engineering class. full class splitted into many groups. me? i dun have any group. all the group i also can. except the outcast group, consisting of people we do not know at all. lol. neutral is good. maybe buy some snacks & drinks, sit back and enjoy the show. but sometimes, being neutral, u get lots of hate. when someone needs help, neutral ppl never go help. unless it benefits them. lol. that can be said about me. yes. im selfish. cannot be helped. i never did like doing charity work as u ppl can see. and now, i wanna sleep cos it benefits me now. lol. nitez to whoever that reads this shit



fuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck.

isnt it great to be in the workforce, being a slave to all those rich assholes? went to work today. found out some particularly rich assholes were going for dinner tomorrow. for SG$20k, i can like, feed myself for a damn long time lah. and thats for 1 person in the VVIP seat. the VIP table, 1 table SG$16k. normal tables, just normal tables, are worth SG$10k. and they giving it all to charity. what the bloody fuck.

number 1. charities are a waste of time. u donate, is mostly to get rid of the heavy coins.

number 2. u help a charitable organisation, they may not help u. so wats the point in doing something that does not reap benefits?

number 3. they send so many people out to 'shear' money from us. like, fuck. nobody is that rich to keep donating in a few months, but those people are fleecing us every 5 to 10 metres?

number 4. its not as if those poor cant afford. its juz that they want to save money. u give them alot, they spend alot. give them little bit, they complain. beggars take ur money, and reach another hand out to u after ur 1st donation. who knows if they got another hand grabbing a knife and getting ready to stab u the moment ur back is turned?

bad as it sounds, charities are a sucky part of life. but for singaporeans, its good. something else for us to complain about. those fucked up organisations. woooo. and im fucking tired from work. i didnt know sitting down could be so tiring. and i need to lose fats, gain more muscles, and the most important. sleep like nobody's business on saturday. zzz. money, muscles and weight loss. those are all that i need, but dun have.

fuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck



omg. today was super super super entertaining. especially during BIA lesson, from 4 to 6pm. that was the highlight of the highlights. lol. wat happened? simple. low su ern brought her junior to sp TO EAT. read those words i bolded. juz to eat. its like omfg. u so bo liao? and she was like yes. im that free. LOL.

then the sms challenge came. lol. lazy find all the smses. but it was damn funny. kelvin and teri, i know u 2 were having a laugh with me. then of all the places those 2 could have sat when they came into my class, they sat at a place where its so so so obvious that they were not from the classes. LOL. then the lecturer saw them. kelvin and i were like, GG. they gonna tio kan. in the end, famous amos was damn kind lah. HE NEVER SCOLD THEM. then i and kelvin laughing like hell at the back. well done su ern. u provided the entertainment of the day. lol.

then, su ern wanted to take 196 go home. so since i so kind, i pei her walk. lol. and then i got stuck in a traffic jam. 30 min journey became 1 hr 30 mins. juz cos of a stupid jam.

tomorrow got practical lessons. jeans for the 1st time sch started. forgot wat pract liao. lol. hope i wun screw it up. zzz. now every wekday i gotta wake up at 6am. sian. sigh



sometimes, geting drunk is the only way to free yourself. getting so drunk u fall asleep the moment u drop on ur bed is 1 good way to cure yourself. try it.

and sometimes, i wonder if girls are really gentle. they tend to be more vindictive than guys. the depth at which they would go for revenge. is it more than wat guys would do? maybe. that requires more research. lol



lets see. its 2.32 am now. and its raining!!! my favourite weather. great weather for a tiring day. went to poly early to do my eng maths. reached at 8 am. got taught by zhibin. he threw me a qn. i fucking got stuck. tio stun. until he showed me how to do. then it was like. wtf?! like that also can. lol. but now, eng maths chapter 2, CLEARED!!! understand most stuff already man. lesson was at 10am. stupid heat transfer lecture. knn. 2 hrs no break. fucked up teacher. dun like her. made us waste 28 bucks today as well. for safety shoes. which as i already said, are a waste of money. camped outside until 12+ when some of us saw other ppl walking out of the buying area. cos those stupid ppl. supposed to come at 12, came late. fuck lor. they should give us discounts man. lol. kelvin, that ps kia, had to go tennis, ps us, and asked me to buy his shoes. fuck lah. lol.

went home. go sleep to prepare for work. and i overslept. well done me. went to work litle late. and they never minus my pay. hahaha. zhuan dao! i had to skip dinner for that. sian. work as usual. today more slack, but got more fuckers. and more good stuff. noodles, left 1 plate, i kope all the prawns. hahaha. and the dessert. jelly and aloe vera. alot of full bowls. no one touched. got full on that. and the 2 cones of ice cream they had. hahaha. shit man. i need lose weight and i juz ate 2 ic cream cones. lol.

then came home. mom cbcb me. for no good reason. kan ni nah. waste my time. then bang all the way back into her room. wtf lah. then i got brandy out at 2.15 am. which is a long time ago. considering now its 2.52 am. lol. miss the taste of whiskey. wanna open my chivas now. but cannot. zzz. dun wanna sleep now. great winds. not cold, but coolng. normal ppl would feel cold wearing a shirt. but im not wearing a shirt. and im not feeling cold. lol. im abnormal. zzz. gonna chiong tutorial soon. wish me good luckdoing maths without calculator. lol



found something sad today. i realised that i will get drunk. around 30% drunk. since i still can msn and watch tv. i just can't seem to walk straight only. thats 1 full mouth of remy martin brandy and a cup of it with my mouthfull. wat that is i dunno. i just know it tastes nice. near the taste of whiskey. very nice indeed. veyr expensive also. 62 bucks for 700ml. even whiskey isn't that expensive for duty free. jeez. i will have to work for it liao. sian.

met with mj and wilson for lunch. eat le go back sp get jap coursebooks, and found out i didn't bring the white form, cannot collect it. thats so damn wasted lah. now i have to go tomorow. sian ji pua. sch was boring as usual. more fucked up. had heat transfer pract. now i know why so many people failed that mdule. never wear goggles 1 point minus off. walk around, no goggles, another point. pls lor. the goggles so uncomfortable. wear le look so weird also. knn. then this cannot, that cannot. dulan practical. luckily, that bitch will take over for 2 hrs nia. then the rest all slack liao. this sem going to have so many shit modules. eng maths seems fun now. and BIA too. funny lecturers.

especially interesting is CP4011. process instrumentation. i tell u. diploma in food science tech, got lots of chio bu there. cb i should have retained 1 more year. then can go in. LOL. actually, no way. chem eng got more money. and i got so many friends here too. too bad got no friends in dfst. or else got intro liao. lol. i sound so bad.



1st day of sch again. went there with empty bag, came home with a stack of notes, and a bottle of whiskey. how great can i be. lol. bag fucking heavy lor. class also si buay boring. boring until i have to play street fighter. 2 1 hr breaks in between lessons. went to eat 2 times. wasted 9 bucks today. that really sucks. big time. and tomorrow i'm gonna spend more on class funds and safety boots. wth. safety boots. as if they can stop everything. waste my 28 bucks sia. knn. somemore those other 2 dche classes with my class. they damn freaking noisy lah pls. have u ever seen a class where they go in and start talking immediately? and at the top of their voices. damn fucking irritating lah. and thats without me having a headache. i wonder if i had a headache, wat would i do man. those assholes. gilbert and kelvin is right. why do we have to mix with other classes? why can't we study solo as a class? mass lectures really suck big time. year 1 kids, especially mj and wilson, watch out sia. noise levels will drive u 2 crazy. all the way throught the roof.



ok this will seem a little late, considering that the zoo trip was on thursday.


splash show? watever this is. before the show started anyway.

went to amk mrt station at 10. i reached early. too early. then asked jiao faster come. he came faster than i thought. then we went walk amk hub. very boring. nothing much to see there. then the rest of 6 out of 7 ppl came. jacob was too busy so he never come. went to mac for breakfast and to wait for kris. then we went zoo. abit diao ar? 7 grown-up people going to the zoo for an outing. lol. ok out of 7 people, i think only 1 was spamming pictures like siao. gilbert sim. the ultimate photo spammer. 70+ pics in 1 puting. the most bo liao kid i've ever seen. and he's my best poly friend. lol. anyway, walk until rain. then kena trapped in one of the shelters. then walk walk walk. and eat lunch. kfc very expensive wor. 1 person 11 bucks. not counting the cents of course. then walk somemore. until zoo close. lots of obscene things to see at the baboons. not gonna comment on that. later kena labelled pervert then siao liao. lol.

friday leh? went to service laptop with kimmao. stupid charger. go stick the pin into the head. then laptop cannot use. that is the reason why metal man bullet was missing for so long. servicing took damn long. waited for so long, collected the laptops, and we went to play lan. wanted to call mj along. but he sure wun come out de. the best part is, we bring laptops to the shop. looked damn funny lah. bringing your own com to a com place to play on a strange com.

and thats all for those 2 days. today ar? juz over. but nothing much. sleep, sleep, go work, found nobody else working with me, went home, play com, go eat dinner, eat supper, and im here! lol.



Komm, susser Tod

I know, I know I've let you down
I've been a fool to myself
I thought I could
live for no one else
But not through all the hurt and pain
Its time for me to respect
the ones you love
mean more than anything
So with sadness in my heart
I feel the best thing I could do
is end it all
and leave forever
whats done is done, it feels so bad
what once was happy now is sad
I'll never love again
my world is ending

I wish that I could turn back time
cos now the guilt is all mine
cant live without the trust from the ones you love.
I know we can't forget the past
you cant forget love and pride
because of that its killing me inside

It all returns to nothing, it all comes
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down,
it all returns to nothing, I just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down,
in my heart of hearts,
I know that I called never love again
I've lost everything
everything
that matters to me,
matter in this world

I wish that I could turn back time
cos now all the guilt is mine
cant live without
the trust from those you love
I know we can't forget the past
you can't forget love and pride
because of that, its killing me inside

It all returns to nothing, it all comes
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down
it all returns to nothing, I just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down
It all returns to nothing, it all comes
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down
it all returns to nothing, I just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down



finally realised why people love diamonds. it reflects what they are. a human has more than 1 side. poke them in the wrong place, something angry will erupt. poke at another place, who knows? the sadistic nature pops up?

how do u define sadistic? normally, torture, bullying, blah blah blah are all calssified under sadistic. all those nonsence. truth is, there is nothing sadistic. its the way people now think. the brain blocks wat it doesn't wanna see. this is also why people say 'i dunno' frequently. it blocks it out so we dun think of it anymore. have more fun saying 'i dunno' from now on eh?



sometimes i do funny things. sometimes i do weird things. mostly, i juz screw up things. when i do weird or funny things, juz tell me and i'll try to stop. when i screw up, most of the time its too late.

Terence
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