sigh. why are girls so damn hard to understand? and why aren't there any books on how to understand girls? zzz



just back from movie watching, walking in the rain, and sitting down slacking. very relaxing. i like! lol. supposed to see disaster movie de. but went there, ai seh,. painted skin was out le. so we decided to see painted skin instead. it looks like a horror movie. but its actually a love story. kena cheated. lol. but not bad lah. ohohoh downtown east movie theatre. sound system bloody loud. the advertisement part already damn deaf liao. then movie part. whoa. fighting scenes the sound damn nice. i wonder if the downtown east cathay do screening of LOTR. how nice that would be lah. supposed to go cycling/roller blading after movie. but it rained. lol. so cannot do that. walked in the rain to white sands slack. and i came home! and im bored. when i was out, i wasn't bored. nope. not 1 bit. im bored at home but i like being at home. lol

i was thinking. why do people crowd around u when u are rich and/or powerful and/or useful, but blame everything on u when they are the ones who did it? people are really weird. the more we learn, the smarter we get, the more cunning we become. and the more cunning we become, the lousier the quality of life becomes. i hate kids. but i like their life. no tax, no politics, no backstabbing, no sarcasm, just worry about grades and not getting spanked. but then again, kids learn fast. they learn all the "bad" things super fast. they learn to talk back pretty fast. and they make super lot of noise. ok digressed abit liao. back to people. people are just really hard to understand. not just the female species. even the male species is hard to understand. its like examining an alien form. u just dunno what to expect of the creature in front of u. its like u expect them to do certain things, certain actions and certain responses. they surprise u by doing something else. mostly something dumb and pathetically stupid. that is true for ALL human beings. me included. the human race needs to be researched further. but the world would say its torture, blah blah blah. then human rights groups and whatever nonsence u have will start complaining. then u get into serious shit. just like cloning humans. why not? u clone them, the organs used for transplants are like exactly the same? isn't that good? success rate of operations would increase right? means lowered death rate right? and clones aren't human beings. they are just copies. so whats the matter? yaya i have no morals. but where will morals lead u to? will being a moral citizen get me rich? will it get me anything useful? sorry but im being practical here. morals are something that the world DOESN'T have. there's no doubt about it. even if there are, its like what? 5% of the total world population? and its the poor people who have morals. rich people get money and act moral by donating to this and that charity organisation. they think what? donating money is having good morals? sorry. thats not the case. donating money means u have too much money to waste. if u have that much money, and wanna donate to charities, u might as well donate to me? u wanna help, buy stuff that they can use. giving them money is useless. money can buy lots of things. but it can't buy real help. they will what? use the money buy drugs? alcohol? go gamble? u wouldn't know would u? who knows? the charitable organisation may even use the money for their own benefits? therefore, donating money is purely dumbness of the highest level. there. im done with my thinking already. see what a great and creative mind i have. boredom suits me well!



sometimes i say things i dun mean. sometimes i dun say things i mean. rarely do i even speak nowadays. and that has roughly made me go back to my anti-social days. now what i do is stay at home, wait for work, try to arrange gym with mr bear and mr bread, and evil twin if she wanna go too. and go back to recalling those 2 days. nope. no games for me. i've stopped gaming for quite some time already. gaming people all disappeared. wee wee and ah long in aus suffering, mr bear animeing and whatever he's doing (searching for honey perhaps?), kelvin long gone, MIA for super long already, wang in china, sure lag if play with him, and yea. thats about it. all gone missing, and jacob asks me to play and he isnt on the system we use. lol. zb ar, we got him to install, but havent gamed with him yet. this world sucks. especially the mosquito parts. thats why i still will not believe in god. he made tons of stupid and retarded shit, if there is any. lol. when i say god, i mean each and every one of them. why make mosquitoes? we aren't blood banks, our blood not free one leh. somemore those bloodsuckers spread diseases. and if there was any god, there wouldn't be any war. right? save what people? save my ass lah. if really save ar, people would have died of old age instead of whatever they die of. sickness, fights, assassinations, blah blah blah. go figure out what else humans can die from eh? oops. how did this come to religion? i wasn't crapping about religion in the 1st place right? lol. crapping powers have increased. YEA! a reason for celebration! lol

heard this a long time ago. ok got this from ming jun. according to him. lol. its super funny. well, here goes.
"there are no clever girls in JCs. only bimbos. why? cos clever and pretty girl chooses JC life instead of poly life. she goes in, smarty pants and all, gets her brain cooked by the stress in JC, and comes out after 2 years with a burnout brain. therefore, whats left is the shell. the bimbo shell!"
lol i was laughing like mad after that lah. friends like him with sense. they rock! lol



people who like to ask questions are the people who mostly get what they want. they are also the thick skinned type of people. the type of person i wouldn't be able to be. people like me really find their lifes sucky. real sucky. cos we dun get what we want when we want it. if u get that feeling most of the time, welcome to the club. find another corner. this ones taken



right. 2 days of nonsence to say. saturday. the super paiseh day. stupid work. wasnt feeling myself already, stupid guest. all want chilli padi. then make me go get. cb lah. get le shun bian get extra plate. then the chilli spill all over. kns. need clear mess. then bend down, heard the *crack* sound. FUCK! my pants split. damn asshole lah. the whole night i work with cold wind going down my pants. wth. enough of the paiseh things. today went yf house. 1st time going wor. met su ern and su yee 1st. then went to find kaiyuan also. i thought got alot of ppl. in the end only we 5. went to mahjong. sucked today. play so many round, i win nothing. no money involved though. then we find for february trip stuff. provided my stupid ITP can let me go. which i still dunno. sian. then we ordered canadian pizza. i forgot how many i ate le. i just know the 2 girls run very fast, left me, yf and ky to finish the pizza. then again. i broke my drinking thingy. yf sis got this opened vodka. which yf say can just take. lol. in the end, half gone. half a bottle by 5 ppl. thats around 100ml per person. i think i drank more than that. lol. and im still sober.



there are so many unpredictable things in this world. like, how its amazing that people do what they want to do only on their deathbeds. its like, they wasted their life earning money and whatever nonsence, then when death knocks, they want to do alot of things not done. and its not earning money. where's the sense in that? spending time with family before dying. thats what everyone says they want. but do they really want that? i don't think some people want their family around their deathbed. another thing. is this world real? or is it a dream? when u wake up from ur sleep, if u remember a nice dream, u start wondering. is this real? did i wake from a dream? or did the dream stop reality? its like a 2-way traffic. u wouldn't know which side is reality and which side is the dream world. maybe both exists at the same time? who knows?

trying to work. get more money. or else i will have nothing to use when school starts and all. work sucks. why else would it be called work? according to a dictionary, work is a physical or mental effort or activity directed toward the production or accomplishment of something. physical or mental effort. means stressing us. we stress to get cash. cash motivates usto be stressed, causes us stress and screws mostly everyone. in other words, money is like life. both of them screw u badly, laugh at u, and continue screwng u upside down and inside out.

i know i made some pretty pointless and senseless shit here, but have fun figuring out what i mean.



went jb today. spent RM15o++. lets count. spent 8.95 at mac, 60 on clothes, erm 49.45 for dinner, 11.80 for drinks, 12 for movie tickets, 6 for shilin snacks, 1 on sweet and 5.50 on chewing gum. all in malaysian money. ownself calculate. hmmmm. need work like mad liao. work work work. money! money! money!



holy shit

freaking holy shit. i passed this sem. I PASSED THIS SEM. omg. and here i was thinking i would fail like shit. gpa dropped though, almost used to it already. drop drop drop. cannot game so much liao. sigh. cannot drink so much le also. must get ready for somany things le. need to workout, need to study, need to lose weight, fuck lah. confirm very little free time lor. ZZZ





ok. terence tan is scared. shit man. 4bia is 1 fucking movie. go watch it if u wanna scare urself. the 1st 3 short films are a joke. damn funny. supposed to scream u will laugh. the last one. fucking asshole. damn scary. got scared at least 3 times. fuck man. and im going jb tomorrow. not thursday.



i hate holidays. i know i know. many ppl love holidays. right? once again, let me stress that i AM weird. do u like ur bday? i know that my bday doesn't matter to me. and i go to sleep listening to music that usually wakes ppl up. lol. yes. back to the holiday hating part. holidays were always a period of boredom and aloneness since i can remember. always stuck at home alone. sister at home also dun feel like at home. talk to her only when necessary. either stuck alone at home, or go work. i think i can safely say that nobody likes work. except the money part. enjoyment of work is something i have never experienced before. no one i know likes their job too. as far as i know lah. and tomorrow going out liao. tomorrow then say. lol



okok saturday. skipped cca to make money. otherwise cashless. work was super erm, slack. damn slack. except for the chicken rice. $%@&^#^*@!*&@ chicken rice. waste time setting up one. leg cramped after work. si buay sian. walked home from bus stop super painfully. ok not walk. is limp. sunday was abit better. actually just afew moments ago. cos i just reached home. 12am++ nia. leg pain until no feeling liao. stand from 11.30am until 11.30pm, maybe slack slack here and there lah. but main point is, wear safety shoes ( yes i didn't wear business shoes. it was too slippery.) for like almost 12 hrs can kill a person. the shoes i just take out. walao. stink like fuck. reached hotel at 11.30, set up table. super boring work. put chopsticks, bowls, blah blah blah. 11.30am to 5pm. can sleep that kinda job. then erm, eat for 1 hr. today food. dunno why but very nice leh. vegeterian bee hoon and fried chicken wings. lol. ppl eat 2 drumlets nia. me and my 2 friends. we ate 4 drumlets each. lol. then 6pm to 11.30pm work again. this time sian. everytime i bring guest drink, another asshole will ask me get something. damn bastard. and i ignored my guests many times. lol. hate them. eat so slow. new dish out le still take their time to eat. na bei. funny ar? waste ni lao pei the time. knn. then at the end, saw soooooooo many beer kena wasted. sim tia sia. want drink also cannot. then see them pour away. sigh. so damn wasted. give me drink all i think i also wun drunk lor. then i go canteen sit down relax. knn. got 1 guy. face red, neck red. confirm is drink the beer one lor. zzzz. if i know i also go drink le lor. kick his ass lah. why no one catch him one? catch then he no need work liao. lol.

tomorrow lucky got nothing on. otherwise die le. tuesday movies!!! going with 1 bunch of classmates. havent seen them for like 2 weeks+? or 3 weeks? whatever. finally got outing with them! wednesday &^$#%$^@ cca. waste time de. no interest just go there talk cock nia. lol. and pay my debt to shorty. thursday. hmmm. try not to sms me on thursday i guess. think going jb. friday work again. ZZZ. gonna die from overextertion of my feet. my poor feet. saturday. got work? i myself also dunno. lol. sunday i think can finally go make new specs like i wanted to do ages ago. lol



if there was a choice to make. and the percentage of passing/failing isn't 100% certain, would any of you make a choice? will the possible become the impossible? or will the impossible become possible?



right. heavy picture posting. viewer discretion required


purple pants sent me this. long long time ago the me. trademark middle finger. this was when we were at SP guildhouse bowling alley. we and dunno how many others

from here on, i dunno the picture order le. cos too many handphone cameras. dunno which one was taken 1st and all. also rarely have my picture. HOORAY! it was kai ting's bday. yes yes. saturday. and i spoke to her on friday only. lol. after 4 years? i dunno


lol dunno when take de


this one too


and this...


and this...


and this...


and this...


ahh finally something i recognise. they took a group photo. mj was the cameraman. lol. i was standing there laughing


birthday cake for kai ting


ok back to i dunno le. lol


and this...


lol pictures really not in order. birthday cake again


bday girl cutting bday cake


the only picture with me inside. doesn't take a genius to recognise me. taken after dinner. some thai restaurant in vivo. not bad lah. total bill was over S$130. GST was 1 person 2 bucks. and there were 11 ppl. government rich le. lol


another all girls photo


this one also dunno from where de


and this...


mmm mj got pranked. lol


my bad cameramanship. can see the whole picture super blurry


hehe i improved. after the short one became the real short one. LOL

and that ends the kai ting birthday saga. and the confusing not-in-order pictures. now for sentosa on sunday. huilu's bday celebration


picture 1. i met su ern 1st. we were supposed to go find charmaine. walk here and there


still finding for charmaine. i too tall i think


yay. trademark middle finger again. in the sentosa monorail? or whatever that small thingy is


what is this i dunno. i didn't even know my picture was taken. lol


in the train service thingy. sat behind cos in front no space le. great thinking time to myself. YAY


card game time. i refused to remove my shirt. and for good reason


after sentosaing. at the monorail beach station


another picture. su ern said the previous one got problem


with the bday girl. although bday over. lol


i refused to put my fingers nicely in the peace sign





removed the song. msn me if u want it

kanji
ねぇ本当は誰も ねぇ愛せないと言われて
怖がりの キミと出逢い やっとその意味に気づいた

傷つく為 今二人 出逢ったなら 悲しすぎるよ

心から キミに伝えたい
きっとただ本当のキミの姿を求めて

まだ不器用に笑うね まだ悲しみが似合うから

キミと出逢う為だけに そう 生まれたなら 変えられるかな

心から キミに伝えたい
傷つきすぎたけど まだ間に合うよ
心から キミを愛してる
キミに降る痛みを 拭ってあげたい すべて I for you

心から キミに伝えたい
キミの笑顔いつも見つめられたら

心から キミを愛してる
キミに振る光を 集めてあげたい すべて I for you

english
Hey, the truth is that someone said, hey, that I can't love anyone
I finally realized the significance of meeting you, who is so nervous

If we met one another in order to get hurt, then this is just too sad

I want to tell you something from my heart...
I'm just looking for your true form

You still smile awkwardly, sadness still suits you

If I was born in order to meet you, then I wonder if I can change?...

I want to tell you something from my heart
I'm hurt a little bit too much, but I'll still be on time
I love you from my heart
I want to wipe all of the pain away that falls on you, I for you

I want to tell you something from my heart
If only I can always look upon your smile

I love you from my heart
I want to gather up all of the light that falls on you, I for you

romaji
nee hontou wa dare mo nee ai senai to iwarete
kowagari no kimi to de ai yatto sono imi ni kizuita

kizutsuku tame ima futari deatta nara kanashi sugiru yo

kokoro kara kimi ni tsutaetai...
kitto dake hontou no kimi no sugata wo motomete

mada bukiyou ni warau ne mada kanashimi ga ni au kara

kimi to de au tame dake ni sou umareta nara kaerareru ka na...

kokoro kara kimi ni tsutaetai
kizutsuki sugita kedo mada ma ni au yo
kokoro kara kimi wo ai shiteru
kimi ni furu itami wo nugutte agetai subete I for you

kokoro kara kimi ni tsutaetai
kimi no egao itsu mo mitsumeraretara

kokoro kara kimi wo ai shiteru
kimi ni furu hikari wo atsumete agetai subete I for you



i have a feeling that this will remain here for quite a long time



hmmmm...didn't go gym like planned. dunno who cancelled. means today slacked at home. no probs with me though. lol. and i need to exercise. but go where? nobody stay my area to exercise with me leh. very sian seh. go exercise alone like very boring leh. i at home already bored enough sia. game play until sian liao. nothing to do liao. and if u were wondering, yes. im extremely bored now. i've been bored since exams started. i dunno why. its supposed to be the holidays damn it. not bored-days. zzz. i need to find more ppl to kachiao le. lol



weird changes are happening to me. like the fact that i've lessened my alcohol intake. that is weird. i just dun seem to be drinking leh. not that there's none at home. there's plenty. but i suddenly stopped. weird huh? check this out. i've also lessened the amount of vulgarities i spit out. unless someone pisses me off, which is highly unpossible. huh i've even began to start missing several people.

went to beach road today. zb had to sew something on his uniform. so went there. sewing time was lunch time. thenwent back see here and there. found the super chio looking S.A.F. first aid thingy. bought it to use the packaging. lol. bandage inside havent thought of how to use. and we walked a damn long way to a busstop to get home. and i was the 1st to alight. lol. and gym tomorrow. 1st time leh. never go before. sian



stupid kuku cca. made me go back for a little while. then training optional, but no one train. so ate brunch and went home. vote for cca chairman nia. then go home le. lol. felt hungry but ate only 1 plate food nia. but still, got full. nearly vomitted. another miracle. good sign. means can jian more fei! lol. ppl who think im skinny, u all are so damn wrong. totally wrong. gym soon i hope. and work. work important. $$$ 1st. then i will have a easy time le. should be easier bah. zzz

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