Sunday, May 31, 2009
got this from a movie summary. think it makes some sense. well, some only. lol.
1) life has 3 aspects: paradox, humour and change
- paradox: life is a mystery. don't waste time figuring it out
- humour: keep a sense of humour. its a strength betong measure
- change: know that nothing stays the same
2) there is never nothing going on. there are no ordinary moments.
3) take out the trasg from what's inside your head.
4) there is no start or stop. only do.
5) everyone wants to tell you what to do and what's good for you. they don't want you to find your own answers. they want you to believe theirs.
6) people are not their thought. they think they are, and it brings them all kinds of sadness.
7) death isn't sad. the sad thing is that most people don't live at all.
8) where are you? here. what time is it? now. who are you? this moment!
9) it is the journey that gives us hapiness. not the destination.
10) if you don't get what you want, you suffer. and even when you get exactly what you want, you still suffer because you can't hold onto it forever.
i didn't put all in. cos some i believe are some are crap.
Fired From The Gun@5/31/2009 10:45:00 PM
Friday, May 29, 2009
pract was a...screw up. didnt know that we had to explain using the model system provided. i went to try explain with what i knew. screwed up group marks. sian. dynamic simulation was, fucking stupid. scenario 1 was ok. nothing wrong. once it reached scenario 2, GG. we got owned by the hand switch. 4 people. 1 room. 1 computer simulation. and we didnt notic the HS. caused the whole graph to be distorted. lucky we were not penalised for not knowing. cos different places got different explainations for their symbols. heng sia. saved by people who want to be pai kia and dun follow well established symbols. stayed back for literature research. finally. stupid fyp. waste time, and totally not interesting at all.
maths test coming up next. fuck EIC already. article is, totally out of my understanding. EIC is, well, a dumb module to many of us anyway. mark us on character? who has the right to say what the right character is? my character fits me and me only. i dont need an outsider to tell me about myself. or rather, i should say that i dont want an outsider to tell me what i dunno about myself. its just like science. once everything is discovered, what would there be left to be found? life would be pretty boring once everything is perfect wouldnt it be? this is why people have such varying characters. its to prevent life from being boring. what would it be like to have everyone optimistic? there wouldnt be wars. thats for sure. everyone would be too busy being polite to one another. there wouldnt be countries. the earth would be know as just, earth. no separating fractions fighting one another. no terrorism, no religion, no nothing. everyone would be the same boring piece of shit. at 1st, it may sound nice. after awhile, it definitely becomes boring. so, fuck EIC. i will not care about it anymore
Fired From The Gun@5/29/2009 07:12:00 PM
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
what would u do if u knew the world was gonna crumble to dust tomorrow? what would happen?
Fired From The Gun@5/26/2009 09:04:00 PM
Monday, May 25, 2009
sigh. wishes would after all remain wishes. wishful thinking is still wishful thinking. nothing good would come out of it. targets should be set low. not high. too high a target is not good.
EIC today was super fucked up. im tired, of course i wun waste energy by being active right? the lecturer mistook it as me being attentive. and said i am improving. dot. dot. dot. i am just me. i am what i am. effective listening is shit. when people say stuff, u are supposed to parrot after them. how irritating. of course i wun be convinced by that lah. plant design also. tks went off early. ok nvm. he go early = got more time slack. then, after the rest go off dunno where, the other class people started playing with the lights. if off the lights still ok. on. off. on. off. dulan. even bert went to the back and sleep lah. want off then off all. fucked up. on only the back lights. u want to on then just on the lights at ur area lah. the back already said off the lights already. cb. pissed off 2nd time. then buay tahan already, go to maths lesson, maths abit better. nothing irritating there. mondays are so fucked up.
Fired From The Gun@5/25/2009 07:38:00 PM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
sigh. dot dot dot.
Fired From The Gun@5/24/2009 12:34:00 AM
Friday, May 22, 2009
sometimes, i wonder that is good enough. it definitely is good for me. makes things easier. but is it beneficial to me? its something to think about. another thing is the people around. sometimes its hard to tolerate people but we still do it. they can be fucking irritating and the best u can do is just bear with it and hope for the fuckshit thats the source of irritance to stop. even when walking on the streets these fuckshits appear. irritating pieces of shit. argh. irritating fuckshits + bothersome assignments = fucked up mood = beware?
Fired From The Gun@5/22/2009 09:26:00 PM
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
its not working out. nothing ever is. everything will screw up. its just how well we cover up. i think im kinda bad at covering things up. i should plug my ears more often so that i would not need to cover up anymore. hear no evil= no need to cover up. yes yes. that does seem appealing enough. i shall do that
Fired From The Gun@5/19/2009 10:38:00 PM
Monday, May 18, 2009
i have rarely regretted the choices in my life. this one though, is one of the few that makes me doubt my ability to choose. i had entirely no idea what was on my mind that day. i should never have done that.
Fired From The Gun@5/18/2009 06:27:00 PM
Thursday, May 14, 2009
no warning signs. no tell-tale signs of danger. soon, the rage counter will explode. if the input doesnt stop, the outlet time will be soon. especially when im tired. beware. u have been warned
Fired From The Gun@5/14/2009 10:54:00 PM
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
people were borned with a nature. that is to trust others. ONLY until other people screw up. once a certain amount of people have betrayed that trust, or have been deemed unfit to be trusted, they would be treated extremely different. this depends on the individual. some people have low trust levels. others have high trust levels. people with high trust levels are normally those who do "good deeds" just for their morality. in this world, trust is hard to earn and equally hard to give. it is howeer, extremely easy to be destroyed. broken promises can destroy trust that has been forming for long periods of time very quickly. sooner or later, there will not be trust in the world. there are too many backstabbers, too many betrayers and definitely too many people that break promises. this world is sucky when we came into it. when we leave it, we leave the world suckier. humans are the best species when it comes to self destruction and being pessimistic. its just another in-born talent that we all have.
Fired From The Gun@5/13/2009 09:56:00 PM
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
today. tutorial day. all the weird stuff came out. learnt that there is no absolute method to calculate answer for thermo. 2 methods with extremely different answers can both be correct for the same question. mass transfer is confusing. maths is, extremely tedious. there are so many steps to do 1 question. 1 part wrong, whole qn wrong. ate 2 lollipops. exchanged new card. now ezlink got quite abit of cash. BUT. cannot use. lower than 3 bucks, cannot take mrt.
went clarke quay for dinner. suyee's bday. went to waraku? some jap pasta thing. 1 thing is for sure. when u go there, upsize the meal. the liao all increase one. not just the pasta. not bad lah the taste. although the spicy is not spicy until u finish everything. went down to walk. found sweet. they just made 1 new roll, then cut and gave out samples. hot samples of sweets. and hot sugar candy, those with pattern and some parts see through, they taste alot better when they are warm. dunno why. played cards on the floor. as usual. then cake arrived. so, eat cake. wind damn strong. had to relight candle for 4 times. yf's lighter is damn fun. flame super big. play le then what else? take photo lor. did lots of funny stuff. some pictures should come out funny. then walk and walk and walk. and then go home.
tomorrow still need go early to trace line for pract. after class still need stay back and go cca. thursday need to stay back after class to do fyp stuff. friday need to meet vendor for fyp. then after GEMS, cannot do risk assessment. have to do GEMS assignment. already book appointment. so just go do. seems that everyday also need to stay back. year 3 seriously sucks.
Fired From The Gun@5/12/2009 11:36:00 PM
Monday, May 11, 2009
ahem ahem. the destroyer is in! MLT1 the seats suck big time. some are pretty weak. weak until i step, it broke. i step on others, never break. kns. oh well. its just another thing that i've destroyed. nothing big. who sits on the rearranged chair would love it alot. great. more reason for people to kachiao me. whatever. today was quite useless. EIS lecturer says she has to get to know me better. S. H. I. T. why me of all people sia? what a kuku lecturer. gah. maths was not much better. didnt understand alot. kuku maths for uni. wanted to go workshop do line tracing for pract. #@^!@!%@!. lab tech say time to go home. need to close lab. so, brought lab coat for nothing. went to do gantt chart for fyp. did 10 weeks, then realised need to do 2 weeks only. what a useless day mondays are.
one more thing. what do i hate about you? every single little damn thing. i think its quite useless to say who you are. its rare of me to hate someone. but it seems that i can do nothing but hate for now.
Fired From The Gun@5/11/2009 07:34:00 PM
Saturday, May 09, 2009
work overloading.
monday, stay back to do mta and fyp.
tuesday morning, meet fyp teacher, finish my pd pfd.
wednesday, plant safety? more pd?
thursday, dunno. try to do pc?
friday, mta pract presentation, gems assignment
weekend, ca camp.
great. just great. stress piled upon stress. shit stacked on more shit. i shall ignore people who disrupt me from now on. there are loads of such people out there. lurking and suddenly popping out to disturb. fucking nuisance. waste of time. i doubt there is a need to say who they are. lets just say that they are extremely well known
Fired From The Gun@5/09/2009 11:12:00 PM
Friday, May 08, 2009
sian diao. im sick. clarinase sucks. kinda doesnt work for me. anyone got any better over the counter med for cold? met fyp teacher. project kinda sucks. i thought blender = cutting things up. in the end, blender = mixer. totally cheated. i think people come to SP is to get cheated lah. sigh. year 3 sucks.
Fired From The Gun@5/08/2009 11:03:00 PM
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
i have decided. it will be finalised soon. i shall be selfish. i shall care about saving myself more. in this world, there is no more use in saving others. the only thanks u get, is u being shoved to danger urself. nobody appreciates it if u sacrifice urself. therefore, anyone sacrificing themselves are kinda stupid. and i'm doing that. oops. im stupid. its true. we do not need to answer to anybody. we may have our own reasons, but we do not have to reveal them if we dun feel like it. yea.
for too long, this question has been in my head. where do humans come from? from monkeys? that seemed logical when i was a kid. now, its not logical anymore. anyway, where did monkeys came from anyway? where do we go when we die? when we die, where do our memories, our thoughts and our feelings go to? do they just, vanish into thin air? do they get passed on to whoever else? is there someone bottling these stuff?
Fired From The Gun@5/06/2009 07:30:00 PM
Sunday, May 03, 2009
i feel so tired. physically. and maybe mentally as well. the games people play. sometimes, its not good to get involved. it gets too stressful for the mind. guess i'll be passing the next few days staring in space. so tired. so, fed up with everything. feel like giving up. wanna give up. cant give up. headaches coming back with a vengence now. every few hours there's a headache. minor, major, they all come like nobody's business. now it feels, weird. everything seems weird. everything seems funny. everything seems annoying. everything seems unreal. everything seems, i dunno anymore. and seriously, i dun wanna care anymore. it just tires me out. its wearing my patience down. if patience can be measured, mine should be what? around the thickness of a thread? i shall need more music to keep myself busy
Fired From The Gun@5/03/2009 09:53:00 PM
Saturday, May 02, 2009
4 words for u. fuck off and die. what the hell is wrong with u? things seem to always get worse when u are there. somehow. its no wonder what happened happened. who u are should know this. what a troublesome person.
Fired From The Gun@5/02/2009 05:45:00 AM
