Sunday, August 30, 2009
what am i doing that for? why am i doing that? is there really no other choice? so troublesome. what a dumbass i am...
Fired From The Gun@8/30/2009 11:17:00 PM
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Life is nothing but a never ending series of goodbyes. You get close to the people around you, get to know them well, then you leave them, or they leave you. After feeling sad for a period of time, you get used to them not being around and start looking for new friends. And the vicious cycle begins anew. Some people however, take a longer time to forget. They just keep coming back in your nightmares to haunt you. The best part? They would most probably trouble you even when you wake up from the nightmare...
Fired From The Gun@8/29/2009 11:33:00 PM
Friday, August 28, 2009
its getting harder and harder to smile. the exams arent helping either. 2 papers done. screwed it like the rest. 1st paper i think minimum 15 marks gone. 2nd paper, no need say. the only person out of 3 classes that went out of the exam venue early. completed the 2 hr paper in 1 hr 15 mins. couldnt take the tension in the room, faster run. alot of things screwed for that paper. now hoping for moderation to pull my marks up already. if no moderation, i think 90% of the 3 classes would fail that module badly.
im reaching my limit soon. if only those things had a reset button for it. i would definitely press it. 我的心真得很乱...
Fired From The Gun@8/28/2009 08:35:00 PM
Friday, August 21, 2009
the nightmares, the headaches. what do they mean exactly? why are they torturing me at this period of time?
Fired From The Gun@8/21/2009 07:06:00 PM
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
the only thing im feeling lately, is the weariness of life. life is, a big fucking joke. we go through minimum 10 years of studying. and we get dumber each day. when there are problems, we usually don't get fucked by the most problematic ones. we learn so much that we forget the simple stuff. stuff we take for granted. we are taught to look at the bigger picture, and end up missing the smaller, more important basics.
on another note, maybe it's time i started being less vulgar...
Fired From The Gun@8/19/2009 11:37:00 PM
Monday, August 17, 2009
everyone's fake. everyone is changing so much that they become unreal. the biggest liars are the people who say that they are 100% honest. in my entire life, i have never seen anyone being completely honest. when people are young, we are innocent. yes. even me. stop laughing lah. as we get older, we learn more about the world and how fucked up it is. we learn that adults are the ones who fucked the world up, and that we would soon become adults who would fuck the world. we learn more about the "skills" we need to survive. basically, we are taught to lie and act differently around different groups of people. the amount of different faces i can generate around different groups of people now is astounding. this is from just 19 years of being alive. i wonder how many more personalities i can gather...
我想说的话，你已经知道了吗？
Fired From The Gun@8/17/2009 09:19:00 PM
Sunday, August 16, 2009
pity the animals used in the LD50 tests. kena injected with poison until they all die. and the dosage is increased everytime. the last surviving animal must have lots of needles in it. makes it look like a damn drug addict. and to think that humans were actually used for LD50 tests. i wonder how it'll be like. each country sacrificing countless number of people per year to do a yearly LD50 test for different age group, nationality, weight group and gender. i wonder how many people would die...
Fired From The Gun@8/16/2009 08:43:00 PM
Thursday, August 13, 2009
humans are always alone. always...except for 2 times. when they are born, and when they die. the person who cares most about you, is you yourself. as we get older, as the time we spend alive gets longer, we lose more and more things.
i dunno what to do again. i dunno what to say again. bleah
Fired From The Gun@8/13/2009 12:41:00 AM
Saturday, August 08, 2009
i don't like people looking at what im doing. i just don't like it. everytime im doing something, i try my best to make sure that im alone. if someone comes along, i stop whatever im doing. for sure. i dunno why i do that either. its just, normal to me i guess
Fired From The Gun@8/08/2009 09:26:00 PM
Thursday, August 06, 2009
i hate being dragged into the mood of other people. when people around me are tired, i get tired. when they're pissed, there's a high chance i would be pissed too. and the worst part is, hiding it is so damn difficult. what a pain in the ass.
it's a promise. but, she's important to me. and i dun really wanna go. at the end of it, she's gone. and i'ld be back to square one...
Fired From The Gun@8/06/2009 07:54:00 PM
Saturday, August 01, 2009
if energy cannot be created or destroyed, how the hell did it appear in the 1st place? and if humans evolved from primitive apes, and those evolved from something else which evolved from bacteria, where the fuck did bacteria come from? so many unexplainable things. all these things. they dun make sense to anyone. just like problems i have. problematic questions that make no fucking sense to me. problematic questions with no fucking answers. problematic questions that keep bothering the fuck out of me. problematic questions i should not have tried thinking about
Fired From The Gun@8/01/2009 11:50:00 PM
