fuck sp and its stupid rules lah. 1st, fyp need to have 3 people. cannot more, cannot less. FUCK YOU ASSHOLES. next. plant design and project evaluation. why must each group have 4 people? there is someone who we ALL cannot work with. even wc cannot. why the fuck must split my 5 ppl group? we did work together already. why must be 4? every other group supports my 5 people group lah. wtf man. kuku rules from a kuku institution. should have expected that from sp even before i steped into this fucked up place



there always has been that one thing that's missing. that last puzzle piece. its impossible to complete any picture with a piece missing. it just, doesnt feel right. like a part of your body has been detached from u. that feeling. that weird feeling. oh well, happy people will most probably not feel that. its definitely not a happy feeling.



i've been wondering. those nerds, those strong people, those rich and those influential people. once they become the top at what they do, what's next? when there is nothing else to conquer, what would they do? defend their position? i doubt that there are things to interest those who are already at the top. heck. there isnt anything that can interest me now. those people whose goal is to be the best. what happens once they become the best? wait for someone to be better than them and continue the goal? that would be extremely retarded wouldnt it be?

pictures? since im bored
archery prep camp 15-04-2009

some box thingy game for camp


still doing. i think this is the other guinea pig group


us having a rest


more resting and laughing at the other group


yes yes. same


group photo? of us slacking?


this is obvious. i hate photo taking


still refusing to have a mug shot


the super wet game


"playing" it

class bbq. 16-04-2009

firestarter guy - zhi bin


what are we doing? forget liao


i was bbqing. to keep myself awake


wc when he was dry


they were trying to throw chit in


and then, when it seemed like she was going in...


wc got into the pool instead. totally wet


his wet slippers


STRIPPER!

after the wetting, eating and whatevering, they got bored. we roasted marshmallows while they did this


donald's 10 wing duck


bbqed marshmallow. they were just too small to be poked


disgustingly gooey


unmolten marshmallow



heacdaches. are. so. not. good. for. health. anyway, erm, ok. lets see. pract in the morning. kinda CPTC like. horror all over again. distillation, packed column, blah blah blah. CRAP. hmmm. gems was kinda funny. the teacher asked if we liked our course. wee wee and i said no together. funny? not yet. the teacher asked us which part. we said every part together again. lol. total nonsence. the whole class was laughing too lah. hmmm. gems seems to be interesting. optometry gems. too bad we dun have practical lessons. too bad we cant cut eyeballs. sad



lessons are becoming.........boring. food in sp seems to have increased. there's now takoyaki. and a cafe. the cafe lollipop rocks. although its super sour. takoyaki tastes like, tofu. but its not bad lah. the sauce is pretty good althugh it looks diluted. cafe's coffee is extremely sweet. fyp group finally done. this 1st week, i've seen 3 lesser faces. and quite afew retained people. who those new retained people are, i dun think i will be mixing with them. their name all the way at the top of the class list. even if have pract, i doubt there will be a chance to mix with them. and other groupings are done. so, dun needa care that much liao. got presentation next week le. and its only the 1st week. modules kinda suck. shall start paying attention in class fully starting next week.

this is good.
no study = fail ----1
study = no fail ----2
no study + study = fail + no fail
(no + 1)(study) = (no + 1)(fail)
(no + 1) can be cancelled, therefore, study = fail!



1st day of sem 5. lets see. some new faces, dropped some old ones and got some weirdass teachers. almost everyone was the same, since most of us went class bbq. got to see them there, maybe thats why almost all still so familiar. never missed fc food like before. cptc food sucks big time. gonna go get my jap cert. once i find the letter. i've been too lazy to put pictures up. shall do it when im not so lazy



hah. bbq today. went prawning 1st. caught 20 plus prawns in 3 hrs. abit pathitice. no choice. the bait they use kinda not very good, and the hook very small. then went to bbq at kris's house. salted the prawns for damn long. then the bbq stuff came. went down to set up everything. fire started quite fast. 3 separate piles of charcoal. during the bbq, it became 1 big pile. 1st down of course were the prawns. those who were there got to eat. not there de too bad. cos the prawns were caught fresh. eaten hot is the best. butter, salt and prawns are a good combo. if there was pepper, it would even be better. but its already damn nice. next was chicken wings. we did good chicken wings. except for afew. the 50+ edible ones were said to be "good". dunno if its true. then donald came and put crabsticks. then dunno who added hotdogs. then eat and eat and eat. eat and cook until the heat super hot. chicken wings became chao ta. well, 2 of them. the rest all faster take out. lol. slowly cook on the side of the heat. then came the garlic bread. piang eh. those bbqing bread, take care. ignoreing the bread for roughly 30 secs can cause it to be burnt beyond recognition. walao. leave the bread alone thought the heat not that strong to KO the bread. in the end, flip le can see black nia. then they peng satay. and reheated the cold otah. lol i dropped 1 otah down to the charcoal area. heat died down i guess. then we finished the rest of the chicken wings. mmm. chicken wings not bad. then we went to play some drinking games. some weird shit game. drank pretty much i guess. quite afew beers, some vodka, hmmm. but its ok! i didnt get drunk. lol. thats an achievement wor. from not drinking for afew months. but now freaking hot. sian. no aircon. zzz



just got back from prep camp. they sprayed water at us. i went home half wet. lol. they spray water only on 1 side de. i kenaed my left side. lol. prep camp was, erm, dunno how to describe. yes. and im kinda tired. got pics, will throw them out later. when im free



went to jb today. jb there the immigration, changed alot. just going to immigration, chopping ink and getting out to the street, is just like walking in the airport. fucking long. way back was the same too. i think whatever i ate there had been burnt off by just walking at the checkpoint. went to jb, 1st thing. find new bubblegum. people out there, bubble yum, the bubble gum ducky, has come out with new bubblegum, and it fucking rocks. bubble yum hershey's flavour. ooooo. the moment u sink ur teeth down, OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... the taste. wow. its that nice. then walk around, blah blah blah, time to go find dinner. of course, i left out lots of stuff. but those were unimportant stuff. ok back to dinner. went to roadside stall to eat. bought or jian, peng he(stingray) and bbqed dunno what fish. i think its parrotfish? since the colour so bright and the fish had a freaking beak. ok the or jian. so many oysters. i thought the guy was siao. then i ate. and really thought the guy was siao. cook damn nice lah. not too cooked. then the stingray was okok nia. alexandra's one is much better. the fish. to me is totally CMI. the meat so soft. dunno eating bbqed fish meat, or mashed fish meat. yea yea. then of course go home lah. went home, play game awhile, then mj say got camp. well done ar. come back, next day got camp. 3 day somemore. hehe lucky i thursday got bbq. wed night can run le. woooooo. lol. and thats it. this is called an "overseas trip". go for less than 1 day trip to jb. yup yup



went to clean grave today. of all days, a public holiday. ok nvm. went to jurong to eat. thought the food that was ordered was alot. until this fish came up. look at the freaking size of it.

big fish. in soy sauce?


the whole fish compared to the other smaller plates. fucking big. freaking nice too.

then go clean grave. burn paper. pollute the environment. waste money. waste time. then dinner. dinner was abit boring. just food and small talk. then went home. what a waste of time grave cleaning is



before i forget things that happened yesterday. ok. yesterday was the test day of CPTC. can be considered the last i guess. tomorrow is the graduation day. ok yesterday. test, course evaluation and something. i forgot what. then went back to SP to do GEMS registration. course i wanted had 4 slots. i clicked it, load and all the crap, the slots gone already. fucked up, but thats SP for u. almost everything is fucked up there. went to friday gems. and friday we only have to go on alternate weeks. then ok. that thing settled, we found out school com can play game. played with other class people. for some reason, i was targetted. deaths in my team were mostly me. cos everywhere i went, 3 opponents would be waiting for me. ok. fine with that. cos my teammates got rich and we won. then wee wee and i rushed to shaw towers. beach road one. steamboat time. we got pang sehed by 4 hungry girls, and a super hungry mad kid. reach there, eat and played games until 10 plus. then we left. kris left early. headache was it? dunno. then went home. and that concludes tuesday. today is much simpler. stayed at home and gamed. waited for the call. none came. thats great. cos a call from those CPTC assholes means that i've failed. so yea. never fail. getting cert tomorrow.



today was the last day of pract. last day of everything. tomorrow just a test. then rush back to school do GEMS registration. after that would be, hmmm dunno. anyway, on todays pract. everybody got high at the last moment. today was on firefighting. went to CPTC normal time. this everything was ok until near checkpoint. wc forget bring his JI pass. so how? they told him to call CPTC to call the JI office. weird. when i applied for temporary pass, nothing like that. then CPTC people say wun help. what "nice" people they are dun u think? and obviously, he was late. ate lunch, then went to class. got stunned when teachers turned up early. carrying lots of equipment. full fire fighting suit. didnt try it on fully. why? 1st, the pants are too short. other people wear all the way to the chest. i wear like normal pants. then the shoes. size 8. how can i fit into size 8? its like asking the weightlifting world champion to get into a kid's clothes. totally impossible. the jacket was cool though. very nice to wear. then we did some weird drill stuff that made everyone laugh. then when it was time for pract, the skies didnt want us to go. it started pissing heavily. at 3, we got our dinner break. 3pm. lunch was at 11am. wow. nice timing too. ok nvm that. then we went to pract finally. did lots of shit work. rolling fire hose out, then roll back. slack slack, then do dry run. whats dry run? we spray water in front, and no one gets wet. so yea. pretty dry EXCEPT for the perspiration. went for break at 6.30pm. late le right? no lah. still got wet run. for other groups, their dry and wet runs, all considered wet runs. for my group, ours were both dry runs. so we bargained until we could play with the firewater and get wet. sprayed almost everyone. then while still laughing like mad people, we asked to play with the fire monitor. think fire hydrant. except that it can move 360 and can spray water damn high. we sprayed everyone with it. of course by spraying upwards. anyway the water comes down pretty fast. damn high pressure. even lecturer who didnt want to get wet got wet. and we dragged another lecturer to get him wet. freaking fun. the water we used was clean somemore. other groups used dirty water. brownish colour. we used clear water. lol. teacher said this -> "ah. see ar. i wet already. who not wet? minus marks". we hear le jitao laugh. this is by far, the best pract. can be put same place as climbing the column. maybe even better than that. and im glad our lecturer is so damn relaxed. not like those freaking strict lecturers. this cannot that cannot. last day, everything goes! got to study liao. sian. tomorrow last test le. hope i get a minimum of a pass. totally dun understand the crappy lecture notes. sigh. life is sucky/good/whatever today. tomorrow is gonna be a sucky day



what are friends? people u mix with in school? people u hang out with? people u game with? people u care about other that your family? no. i doubt so. friends are people who dare to trust you. they help to remove shitty feelings and cheer you up. friends will be there when u need them. when u have the urge to be alone, they leave u alone. in this sucky society, true friends are hard to find. its become hard to tell who's a friend and who isnt. its as if everyone's holding a sharp, pointy knife at ur back. its a scary feeling. its a scary world out there. its the world we live in. a pretty sad world in my opinion.



its really hard to tell the truth. its just that much easier to lie. telling the truth hurts. in our long and fucked up lifetime in which karma gets to kick our asses all around, we will definitely hurt someone. someone. we may or may not know who that someone is. heck. we may even like it when some people get hurt. how do we get hurt? the easiest way is not to whack the person. that would hurt your own fist. it would be counter-productive wouldnt it be? no. the easiest way to hurt someone, is to use words. specifically, the truth. the truth has more hurting power than the largest nuclear bomb. nuclear bombs only kills us. bomb drops, kaboom. we wouldnt suffer much. of course, except the survivors. hearing the truth on the other hand, would cause mental trauma. mental trauma is scary. very scary. try locking yourself in a dark room. dark as in, totally dark. hold ur hands out in front of ur eyes and u wouldnt be able to see kinda dark. stay in there for just 2 hours. without anything. just an empty room and you in it. the trauma caused. i would not wanna think about it. since telling lies is easier, i find that most people live their lives a huge lie. they know what they want and deny it. they know what needs immediate attention but ignore it. it seems that telling lies, even to yourself, is the only way to survive in this world now



seriously, fairytales that end with happily ever after? they never ever happen in real life. the only thing that happens in real life is the part where, actually, nothing in any goddamned fairytale is true.



no mood to do anything. dun feel like doing anything. if there is a word to describe my life, i guess t would be crash-landing. why? cos its crashing. screwed up lots of stuff today. starting from yesterday night. dunno what to do. dunno why as well. have been asking lots of ppl why. and they gave me the stunned look. cos i want the answer, to a question that i have not asked anybody yet. that question for now, is still on a "for me to know and for you to find out" basis. try not to question a fucked up terence tan. it will definitely not be healthy. that i can guarantee. if i happen to screw up anymore stuff soon, just try ur best to ignore it. its hard when i screw up big time. sorry wc. the wedge slipped and fell on u. thats if u can see this shit.

Terence
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