Right. su ern's bday. this was on wednesday. after the stupid, fucking, confirm fail fluid mech paper. enjoyment after stress? think can count that way. drank alot that day, slept for 1 hr that "morning", and went to revision class on thursday like a mad kid.

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waiting for dinner at dian xiao er. marina square. yes yes i admit i was bored


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right. this should be after dinner. dun ask me why i look so sian



went to withdraw money. threw su yee's 10 bucks down. they called my cai shen ye. LOL



at esplanade rooftop. we were supposed to be squatting? i dunno. i look weird



this one dunno who take de. very dark. can see the water bottle, the apple tea bottle and the absolut bottle in the front. and can't see us. lol



right. this one, last pic of the night i think, and i think dun have liao

as u can see, there are 5 pictures taken at the restaurant. why? cos the waitress decided to take alot of pictures. most prob to eat snake. and then say cannot. our specs reflect light or what. and i have no idea why i look so much bigger in the photos. pls dun ask me why. then we took our specs off. and there. 2 more pics.

oh yes yes. and we went fish and co. after heat transfer paper. fish and co. rocks. and sl pang seh us. supposed to go de. neh neh. ah wang also never go. the rest of the ppl no need say lah. u know i know can liao. so, in the end, the ppl who went are, 7 pointer, mr bear, noobshit, a 8 year old kid and me. got special guest too wor. karen and teri. they joined us for fish. WOW. and cc and dunno who went too. and kelvin sat right at the side. host of the day. LOL. they were like thanking kelvin for the "treat" almost every 5 mins after they finished their dinner. lol. and ks, kel and me had extra fish. why? cos the 2 small sized girls couldn't finish the "large" piece of fish. and me and kel, after the seafood platter for 1, still felt damn hungry. so, yea. can see the difference size makes. lol. the 2 little girls also had dessert. chocolate pecan somethingy. got alcohol de. but can't smell any. lol. mr bear took a cheese cake that was rock hard. and when karen tried to cut some of it, the thing toppled onto the table. can hear a small thud de. lol. and mr bear called for latte. milk. LOL. he wanted coffee and ordered milk. seriously. and we made fun of mr bear's milk and cheese cake. that was damn funny. dun want say here. later kena caught, then sent to the bear den. then die le lah. LOL. and we went home after that. yay. and i still got archery later. zzz. sian ji pua. on the other hand, YES LAH. WOOOOOO



damn happy! WOOOOOO. FINALLY I DID IT. and i thought i wouldn't do it. thanks to the noobshit man. owe u a meal. su ern too. i dunno if i should owe u 1. lol. i think can bah. hahaha. PIA DOTA SOON



the day before the final day. and im not talking about HTE semestral exam. zzz. wish me luck, although i dun believe in it. zzz



su ern's 18th bday today. older liao. dun do anything stupid ar. lol. went for a KO exam. bell shaped curve was redrawn. ppl were failing here and there. so, shouldn't be a prob to pass bah. su ern bday very ling. talk to someone, ai seh. miracle. pretty girl havent got bf. (its not su ern. su ern ar, dun upset ar.) should it try my luck? anyway, anybody coming here pls click su ern's link and wish her happy bday.



should i? or should i not? if i should, that would be the 1st time. and 1st times are never done properly. if i should not, im a damned sinner. zzz sinned 2 times already. will i sin a third time?



ok now. im not emo ok. im confused and mad. and to the assholes that call me emo kia, i will point the middle finger there. i DO NOT appreciate being called that (yes that means you kelvin yeo). if u wanna say it, say it softly. do not let me hear it. my hearing is somewhat perverted. can hear quite well. but for calls and sms, i only hear them if my ears are not plugged with ipod music.

why is it that when u want alcohol, its never there? my memory is fucked up. things that are important i almost confirm forget. those supposed to forget, keep coming back. almost as if i were some kinda drug. and these memories need their daily fix of me. such sianness. i stil got a minimum of 3 ppl to forget lor. what the bloody fuck. at least i remember most of my friends

and that was the finest 1 hr of my life. what was it? DUN TELL U. heh. finest. but sooner or later its gonna suck. sigh. what the hell is wrong with me? no cofidence thats whats wrong. totally none. ok not totally. but quite a damn large portion. sigh. that sucks now. seriously. totally sianded. someone pass me their confidence yea? i'll be grateful to that person. i think bad mood gonna continue. sigh



know the feeling that comes over you when u hear, read or watch something vaguely familiar? sometimes its good, and sometimes it sucks. mostly, it sucks. dun ask me why. thats the way it works apparently. and thinking was never a good thing for me. thinking always got me headaches. huge headaches. i think if converted to earthquake scale, a full quarter of the world would be gone. totally gone. and exams would prove to increase that intensity. and so, im pretty much fucked. very much. and i hate that. all the way to millions of galaxies away or whatever there is. SIGH

is it me? or is it her? or her? or her? or them? should i hate myself? or them? decisions galore. confusion and insanity seems to be the base foundation of me. fucking screwed



right. today paper a joke. some qns. really lol. cos we thought no one would think of such qustions. and the pros in the class. LOL. THEY DUNNO HOW TO DO! LOL. anyway, during readng time, spotted my sure KO qns and decided to leave them blank. then did the rest. ASAP. and its proven. my signature style for exam is, finish whatever paper in half the time. this seems to apply only to modules with good lectureres. not fucked up ones. paper was 2 hrs. finished it in half the time, wanted to piss, so passed up the papers. lol. i went out, hafiz was looking at me. like i mad. lol. and i spent a long time pissing, washing hands, blah blah blah, then went back, still no one came out. lol. then 1 girl from dunno which class came out. like. whoa. 2nd is a girl? i half expected it to be jie sheng or gilbert lah. those 2 mad ass also same as me. chiong one. and yes. jie sheng came out 3rd. lol. then the rest all slow like tortoise. come out at the end. lol



today, very lethergic. so, 7 words here only



right. im screwed. totally. by BIA. actually, not just me. lots of people. i study 1 formula, put wrong place, another qn use word describe when they want diagram too, and lots of other nonsence. this is almost like o level amaths paper. totally no time sleep, and i used a damn lot of the exam booklet paper. normally just afew pages. 5 max? zzz. nvm. its over already. pract will pull it up bah. i hope?

lots of people changing. attitudes are just some of it. mine? i confirm changed alot. everyday also changing. good mood/bad mood/whatever mood. it has bnever remained constant everyday. when im not feeling myself, i would try to appear cheerful. overly cheerful. even mad loking at times. and when something bad happens to someone, i try to hide my whateverness. since there is not much kindness left in me, i would rarely smile if something good happens to someone. unless the person is my friend. like i said, any strangers can just fuck off and die. none of my business. masks need to be worn on a daily basis now. if u can ask why there is a need, then u are obviously dumb



slept 2 hours yesterday. 5am. why? dunno. just can't sleep. but dun feel tired leh. weird. my body is damn weird. can sometimes survive without sleep, sometimes go sleep and wake up even more tired. studied BIA today. BIA is stressful/not stresful. sounds contridicting? no way. u try studying that shit. then tell me if its either. u wun be able to respond either. friday got PI. should be quite ok. just that the questions are pretty fuckedup. super dulan when u find out its done by the simplest methods. very frustrating.

and i simply hate going out. where? anywhere. cos there's a feeling of mockery everywhere. almost everything is fake. even the singaporean atheletes. by right, the singaporean team should consist of just singaporeans right? wrong. atheletes from "singapore" are foreigners. why? cos the incentive is good. very good indeed. a gold medal would earn them how much? 1M++? i dunno. dun like sports much, but i know its damn fucking good money. those foreigners could never join singapore just because they love singapore. they can say that, but we all know thats just bullshit. they are here for the money only. and the singaporean government spends so much on the atheletes. why? getting a gold is not for the money or for national honour. its for personal honour. the atheletes train. not the government. why should they be awarded such large amounts of cash? not meaning anything, but the money could be better spent in other ways. spending the money in R&D would be a good start. singapore's water resources are like shit. researching better water treatment would be better than the amount of gold medals. what can gold medals do anyway? collect dust? argh forget it. saying it here wouldn't do anything to change it. nothing would be done anyway. hate most foreigners. emphasis on MOST. do not assume anything



fucking headache. went to sch for fma session. few ppl went cos not intended for whole class. only for those ppl who requested. need help with fma. from chapter 2. and watched armageddon again. still one of my favourite shows. few movies can beat that. and i still need to study for semestral exams. fuck it lah. why do headaches come only when we start studying? and not other fucked up times? seriously fucked up. and those haunting thoughts come back witht he headaches. not good. not good at all for the metalmanbullet



today kai yaun's bday. went to marina square to meet them. then walked to suntec to eat fish and co. they stand outside dunno want go in or not. then bday boy say go in. cos no one want decide. so we went in and eat. eat halfway, got alot of talking. and what yi fan says is true! JC ppl dun have common sense. lol. can ask go NUS get what cert. we jitao told her go uni for diploma. go poly for degree. LOL. and kai yuan needed to stand up. fish and co speciality to make bday ppl si buay pai seh. stand on chair hold sparkler. lucky my bday not at fish and co. eat le i go press money liao went walk walk. walk until esplanade. along the way, i become cameraman. dinner time too. and at the ATM, they take picture again. best thing is, at esplandae, those pictures had a "do not touch the display" on the floor. and su ern, su yee and the bday boy went to touch them. lol. i dunno why but today got alot of pics. but all not with me. all with su ern and su yee. so went esplanade. go all the way to the roof to play cards and drink. walking here and there on the roof finding for place, we were talking in cantonese too. lol. and i didn't know we could spend 40 mins taking pictures. cos the "wind was blowing. must wait". or else ar, JC girl will kena zhao geng. lol then play blackjack. today very heng. alot of 15. all can run de. lol. then got afew times suay. kena bomb. then need drink. my jack danial's left half bottle le. yay. the not-so-nice alcohol gonna be gone. then, went home.

that sounded like compo. like primary school essay writing. just using singlish and hokkien nia. LOL



semestral exams gonna start next week. everyone still relaxing. gaming like there's no tomorrow. good good. means they all good enough liao. very pro le. means i can bomb them with qns. very good. went dinner on saturday. national day. went with my relatives to eat. 2 tables 600 bucks. there were supposed to be 16 ppl only. dunno why but 1 of may aunts "joined in" too. eat until wanna burst that kind of feast. forogt what i ate in order, but there were lots of seafood. alot. was told by mr bear ks like seafood. too bad he not my relative. lol. he can eat until full on just seafood. there was crayfish, sharks fin, fish, frog, goose and i forgot what le. alot of seafood can liao. then yesterday, opened a bottle of jack daniel's. not nice one. kena cheated. dunno who tell me nice. then i bo liao, take carlsberg and mix. personally, i dun like carlsberg. but ar, mix with jack daniel's le si buay nice to drink lor. why ar? i also dunno leh. dun ask me wor.

another thing. dunno isit saturday or sunday or today ah long's birthday. he dun want tell me. say is secret. when kelvin and bert blog have. lame lah ah long. thats if u seeing this. well, happy bday. 1 year older liao. can dun be so guai le. can go clubbing with us soon. LOL. according to kelvin, fish and co for his belated bday celebration. IKUZO. very long never go there eat le. will pokai if go but still must. very nice. lol



finally went to sign up for basic theory. going for the test on 2nd oct. most prob during the holidays. zzz. lots of things need to be done during the holidays. rest, go gym, work, test. anymore? dun think so for now. if i forward FMA, maybe need study that again. but thats if it happens. touchwood. finish my driving fast. then can start on motorcycle. gonna save money. for PC, overseas trip, bike, and most importantly, pay off my ipod debt 1st



been so tired lately. tired as in, tired. stupid fma. get D+ hua he liao le. GEMs test teacher screwed up, so next tuesday. PU test on monday. no need study and everyone most prob gonna study. i mean, just flip through can liao what. enough about studies. studies suck to the core. like work. work sucks cos we need to provide service to other ppl. and that really sucks.

was crapping with su ern on msn quite afew days back. when she was still a happy little girl. su ern dun sad le lah. must fang de kai ok? ok back to the msn thingy. something about her business class dunno what discussion topic need crap for 2 mins. the topics were like. WTF?! if i her course ar, that one sure get A de. all the topics i can crap so much lah. if me, kelvin, gilbert, jie sheng in the class ar, the class sure die. kelvin and me already crap like siao, jiao can use his jiao language jiao the lecturer out, and js can use his bear honey technique to explain each topic scientifically. we 4 i think can totally wipeout the whole class's questions lor. can even say that for some topics, 2 mins is totally not enough.

went to jap again today like usual. before jap, went fc2 to find mj. then me and daniel cha siao him. we argued with him until he pek chek. until he really nothing to say. and i know my personality well. damn well. if u are not someone i recognise as a friend, u are a stranger. and all strangers can just fuck off and die. the real world is a harsh motherfucker. its either the assholes die or we die. and for me, i prefer to let those assholes die. thats why my personality is so damn "sad". and honour cannot feed me for the rest of my life. therefore, honour means nothing to me. dun blame me for that. blame the world for being so harsh.



shitload of tests on monday. mathcad was no kick, PI open book so no need study. BIA the most shag. 50 MCQs for us to tick. 200 choices. studied abit. studied more before BIA. damn long break. should be alright i think. if i do correctly that is. next test tomorrow. another shit module. FMA. sucks the hell out. oh ya. screwed HTE on friday. tomorrow FMA most prob will fail like usual. and ezlink cards suck. morning got no problem. cb. i want go home, the cb card go spoil. make me waste money for bus fare. knn. why cant they use the old system? more fail safe lor



went to lunch treat today. same uncle treating again. lunch involved 12 ppl and a whole lot of food. 4 large sri lanka crabs. 3 in chilli crabs and 1 pepper one. so many crabs, so little people. add prawns, deep fried baby squids, 2 plates of vegs, claypot tofu and roasted chicken, i'ld say that is too much food. even for me. so yea. too much food + me = empty plates all around the table. YEA!!! erm, no pictures. cos i hate taking pictures, and my hands were covered in chilli crab sauce.



i have decided that if i ever have fucking splitting headaches and recurring nightmares, i'll stop studying. studying with those 2 in my head almost equals to nothing studied. if i went archery, it would be worse. hot sun plus those 2 = madness. pure madness. ENOUGH



humans are so weird. we almost always like something or someone that we can never get. why? i dunno. maybe humans are plain stupid? and we never learn from our mistakes until we are on out deathbeds. we go for something, then ignore other more important stuff, and die from our ignorance. that pretty much sums up the human race. examples are everywhere. scientists trying to find cures for viruses and diseases for decades with no results and blah blah blah. no need me say, anyone also can see. it happens in everyday life. have fun trying to get what that is. no prizes for correct guesses. simply cos i dun give a fuck

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