Friday, October 02, 2009
when you feel happy, you realise you feel happy. then you think back. why do you feel happy? then, thoughts start appearing. soon, you would realise that most of the time you have been happy, it's just a false feeling of elation. one or two seconds and the feeling is gone. you would laugh with the crowd, and stop soon enough. most of the time, it's just a lie. just a mask to hide everything. from everyone. from the world. on the few occasions that you really do feel happy, someone or something somehow screws up and causes that happiness to go flying away. in a way, i guess that happiness is like trust. extremely hard to get, and much harder to keep.
have you ever had that feeling? its depressing. you don't mean to keep mulling over it. but it just doesn't go away. sigh. listening to music doesn't help. playing games doesn't help. nothing helps. highly doubtful that sleep would help as well. i thought it was over. i thought i could forget. i thought wrongly. apparently. i guess i'll never know why. life sucks. really sucks. as to why? ask yourself. don't ask me why.
Fired From The Gun@10/02/2009 10:58:00 PM
